What do you fear!?

[Dancingforyhwh]

I had posted before we overhauled the forums about what your biggest fear is, as there is always healing in confession! Whether it be for someone else's benefit or your own, just to really come to grips with and admit what's going on, it will help someone in some way!

I shared that my fear, is/was (as its being worked out of me!) a deep relationship with a man, and I thought this was only marriage centered, but as of late I realized it was any type of depth in a relationship with the possibility of marriage. Anything that could seem like a possibility of commitment and vulnerability flipped me out. And I was under the impression that this was a wisdom based fear in my life, it was healthy, kept me out of trouble, (still a virgin and will be until marriage) kept me pure. I was always afraid of missing the right guy, doing something wrong, hurting someone, playing with their emotions, or them playing with mine. I don't look at divorce as a personal option for me, so I allowed all this pressure to build of that I would make the wrong choice, and then what? And every wrong decision of the past served as constant reminders!

Since my last post, maybe a month or a little more ago, I have been coming out of old mindsets, and seeing the truth in all of this, and allowing God to work out the unhealthy fear I had in this area. I would allow myself to become stressed and worried and flipped out about, all the what if's and could be's before anything at all developed, really before any real feelings or discussions happened between me and another, and so much more so after we had any real discussions. This has gotten so bad in the past, even recent (yearly) past that I became physically ill from the stress I brought on myself. I let my mind go crazy and effect my nerves and my stomach! But God is a healer! Without Him I wouldn't have known the real issues behind my fear or their depths, nor would I be coming through them!



What are your fears? Those you have now or have had in the past and how did you get over them!? (With God or not, thats why this is in this link!)

[xenoaurora]

I sent it out in a private email in short to you guys a couple weeks ago.

My greatest fear came from a magazine i was reading and subscribed to called voice of the martyr. Its not a bad magazine at all just made a major difference in my life. The magazine focused on other nations and witness' in those nations etc and stories of success and sometimes tales of great persicution.

I read a story about a man who was beaten severely for sharing the Gospel. And it led to his family having to watch him be beaten and eventually their beating because he would not relent from sharing the gospel.

I myself am not afraid of being beaten for the gospel. But it became an overwhelming fear after understanding how bad its supposed to get in the end days. I began to fear emotional connections as to not make people near me suffer the great pain similar to what that mans family must have felt.

Since then ive been overcoming and working on overcoming my fear and making connections and making myself emotional available. And like your other post said, learning to also use my heart to evaluate which is like a new child learning to walk. For too long ive only evaluated.

Mayble ill post more later.. its getting a bit late.

[Naesimo]

Mat 10:19 But when they deliver you up, take no thought how or what ye shall speak: for it shall be given you in that same hour what ye shall speak.
Mat 10:20 For it is not ye that speak, but the Spirit of your Father which speaketh in you.

If our Father is present in us that strongly then I think we won't know any fear, and neither will those around us that have Him present like that. I pray that is a comfort to you. I wish I had more words, but I pray this is enough.

Love in Messiah,
Renae

[Dancingforyhwh]

k. For too long ive only evaluated.

Evaluating instead of thinking with your heart is definitely an easy and for me, a well understand and often used way to keep emotions and relationship type connections at bay. It makes it very easy to distance yourself and stay disconnected.

I pray that you allow God to renew and/or change your mindset to line up with His, and that you'll have no problems coming out of past mindsets in regards to this! A word about past mindsets on bill and marsha burn's website really really helped me overcome mine, thinking about it as a mindset and being set, in my mind, regardless of the person place or situation, always handling it the same. Almost like a mindless drone, but with a bit of freaking out and anxiety mixed in from the flesh!

Lets overhaul our minds!